Same goes to you

You said, i was caught up in
the history, still trifling with
the bitter memories of mine.
You landed your pointy finger
at me, hurling absurd
judgements that i, myself ,
had never let any of those
says came across my mind. My
thoughts are mingled now.
Worst than any mixtures of
shits and bullshits.
But, you got it all wrong this
time . Guess, the scribbled
says in my mind are no longer
visible to your eyes. I held
back my tears but it had
already carved a pathway for
their perfect getaway.
Indication to my loss for my
sacred pride and ego. lol.
Thanks a lot.
I said, a past is a past for me.
It is one of those chapters in
my book that i can never
neglect. Truth is, i end up
smothering myself with tears,
sobbing like a baby, whenever
i reminisce with my past. It is
a despicable nightmare for
me . I had pledged myself to
forget, move on , get over it.
But here i am,still trying to
live my life with ease but i
failed. There's a string that
linked me to the past
somehow buried along with
my wounded emotion. I wish
you'd be in my shoes. Breathe
the air that i breathe.
Tears were always the fullstop
to a memory. I am not pining
for the history i was trapped
into once upon a time. I took
an oath to not let the repeat
button been pushed again.
But, How can anyone could
ever scratch the past from his
mind if its the most shittiest
part that one could ever
swallow?

BELIEF !

you see , i have this freak tendency about my very own attitude . My tantrums are monstrous . I know and the portion where , i can always get bored is unspeakably aggravating . I can never be proud with my attitudes but i will most like be more than overwhelmed if anyone really could swap my disguise with something better make me feel better . Not making much more worst than it is . No tears to shed anymore .
And when the time come , i just know SHE whoever she could be THE ONE so much for fairytale en ? Well , i do believe in fairytales as embarrasing as it sounds . Really i do . It is not i am going to marry a princess like going to a ballroom and topple over , i will be prince parsia who save the cursed princess . ROFL !
Once i have always apprising to myself , how many happy ending are plainly bullshit but i guess i am the one that is bullshit . LOL! Happy endings do exists , if you believe , get that right ! -_-
i promised 'my love' i will be standing right here , waiting for you to OPEN your heart and reach out for me . I know someday , my stomach will be fluttering with tremendaus butterflies again , just for YOU and i will make sure that every feeling will last forevermore . I HATE to wait , BUT for you , i will . I believe that ONE day , you would open your hearts , praising the most beautiful smile that i have ever set my eyes on , but now , i will keep on fatasizing about 'our love' about you !
Now , i am feeling downed SILLY i dont need any royal blood assholes to be my princess . I just need my true love and GOD .
WHO KNOWS =|

gliding through the true way

I made a mistake by choosen her and left another by unspoken . What a pity girl who wearing a shawl , baju kurung for choosen materialistik , shopholic girl . From that day onwards , she never forgive me and realize that decision i have made is a huge mistake and i was blind before cause too loved . ;O true to be told , regret 1st will guide to the BEST way !

OGLE OF HAIRUL -__-

SORRY I CANT PUT A PHOTO , UPDATE BLOG USING PHONE! LATER WILL PUT IT *sigh -_- stood infront of mirror , glanding through my crap reflection . Two scar of my pimples clearly seing . Swollen right eyes . One of my worst looks of all time . As i stare at my horrifying image , there was a mass of curiosity that came marching in through the door . Like santa claus , it was carried a sack that has everything about what me myself and i want in it . I took a glimpse over every lines scribbled on FOOLISH of me to be so CONFIDENT when it come to me all this time . I was discapble by harsh words . A revolting and selfish me . I was lost in the middle of no where searching and waiting for the truth . I had a FAKING shit experience on wait and search and i dont thought to do it twice . So i raised the white flag . Carving a new brand shape of HAIRUL ! Tried to fix and avoid all the mistake i have done . Truth to be told , it was unpredictable and extremely hard to wait and search of ourself . I had tried too many times . EMOTIONAL can be soothed when we rub it with the right way . I see things with the eyes of my brain . With love , HAIRUL ;]

GET TO KNOW YOURSELF DONT LET PEOPLE SAY WHAT AND WHO YOU REALLY ARE ! LET YOU , YOURSELF DECIDE !