what if . . .

Yesterday, when i was sitting by the window pane, staring at the empty blue sky , my mind was struck with endless words and question marks. No doubt, curiosity was the one that had its button pushed and there were no other feelings left to be spoken. Everyone has their own says and beliefs over something. And, so do i . I was caught up in a shape where there were no edges to say goodbye. I believe, this life that we are living in is like a puzzle. Its either we decipher the missing pieces of it or we just let it be. Its our burden to carry and yes, it is optional.


Every ticking sound that the clock made, was the reason for my fear to smear. Time is old enough to give it a rest anytime soon. It makes me ponder , how one could slacken his grip over his destiny when the fact that says, "nothing lasts forever" is a knowledge buried naturally deep inside our raw flesh. Everything that we have has its expiry date and sad to say, so do us. Still, we are living in the life as if none of that would happen. As if none of that could have happened to us. Why? Every time i let loose my ponderous mind and let it tow itself to a stream of wonderland, i get nothing but the extreme shivers. The only question that has taken its toll on me was 'what if'. I can only arouse my mind and heart from this sweet but lethal dream , but my body can never follow the beat. I can only get myself fumed with rage with no one else but myself . . but that won't solve the puzzle still. .

The Earth is already aching . It takes us only one drop of awareness and everything is intelligible enough for us to witness. Anything can happen within just a glimpse and i wonder if my good deeds while i was breathing would be enough to support me next.

So, i am shifting the prodigious burden to your shoulder now. What if. . .