Somehow, i have get wind of the fact that i was never born to treasure anyone above me. I was born with a chunky of ego. I was born with such burning petulance in me and i was born to possess such a hefty yet obstinate head . I was born with an attitude.. I was born to antagonize people that i love. I was born to not exercise. ROFL. People may loathe me for who i am but it is rather better than being loathe for the ones that i am not. Why bother loving some bogus person ? Still, i never want to change anything about me. I am being optimistic here and i had been whispering to myself throughout the years that there is actually someone out there ought to accept me for who i am. Not for who i am not. I had been clinching myself with people that loves me instead of the loathers. They said i was strong but i could never comprehend that very word. Until now . .
When i start to put the puzzles back in shape, everything seems to be crystal clear now. No words could explicate how i am grateful to be me. My life is vaguely exquisite and i won't trafficking any of the chumps for anyone. No matter how many desolation that i had to come to grips with, none of it would ever knock me down until hell freezes over. I am not the stamp that cries every night for some preposterous reasons. I only shed one tear on one hitch and get things over with. Now, the word 'strong ' is propagating around diffusing into every cells of my body. Once, i was a delicate person that never knew anything about life and now, its over. Yes, my life can be really distressing . I was vulnerable most of the time. Can be so doleful that all i wanted to do was to run away, to pull the trigger, to choke myself to death or catapult myself into the sea and get things over with . I had been through so much and it doesn't hurt to swallow more.
Nevertheless, none of the woes that immersed in me gave me rues. Somehow, it gave me the guiding light to keep on living, to keep on breathing, to keep on smiling. Hence, maybe you should know, i am not heartless but my heart is no longer fragile. =]
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